My Point of View

I sit here in the office with loads of work to finish off tonight. Most of those I know have already gone back home for Diwali. I got my parents and wife waiting for me at home but I'm not going. I don't actually feel like going home right now. I want to spend time with them but cannot. There seems to be some component of my life that's missing. I miss my loneliness actually. I really want to be completely lonely. My mind is pulling me back to my past but I'm not interested. My family wants me to look forward, but again.. not interested. I want to feel this moment. I want to feel again what it's like being all alone in this social jungle with no one to bother me not even my mind.I guess loneliness is addictive like cigrettees. There is so much to loneliness to enjoy. The feel that time has stopped for you and you get to enjoy this very moment over and over again. Anyway, let me just finish off my work and go back home.. let the time roll...

I went off to sleep in the night after a few pegs of Whiskey. Tossed and turned like like omlettee on a frying pan but all in vein; figured out I was not ready to sleep. Old memories kept on flashing inside my head. Memories have this bizzare' habit of visiting my head without a prior notice. But this time it was slightly different. I was not thinking about one person in perticular..Flashes from my childhood, from by graduation days affairs from my past affair and my wife kept haunting me. All the bad memories kept comming but I was not getting sad by any standards. I was haunted, teased and tricked within, but no sign of sadness... Now love has an uncanny way of fiddling with your thought process.. sometimes you feel sad thinking about all the good things that happened in love. Sometimes you smile on how someone you loved so dearly shattered you.. and like yesterday night, how all the bad things that your loved ones did to you leaves you with absolutely no feelings atall. Well, t...

There are no ups and downs in life.. We have ups and downs in our heads; because our minds controls us. We worry about our future and we feel happy or sad about our past. What we don't realize is that past is not real.. it is just a memory inside our head. Future is nothing but an imagination of what might happen. Future may happen, future may not happen. Both future and past donot exist in the real world. They exist inside our heads. The only only thing real is NOW. Don't let your memories and imagination ruin your NOW. Don't let your past and future ruin the real happiness that you have right now. Stop thinking for sometime. Let the dust of thought settle down. Let your senses absorb the enviornment around you. People working in cubicles, monitors on screensavers, good looking people smiling, bright tubelights, perfect temperature from the AC...everything is so beautiful. Isn't it!!! All you need to do is switch off thought process; all memories, all imaginations, all...

कोई दीवाना कहता है कोई पागल समझता है मगर धरती की बेचैनी को बस बादल समझता है, मैं तुझसे दूर कैसा हुँ तू मुझसे दूर कैसी है ये मेरा दिल समझता है या तेरा दिल समझता है !!! मुहब्बत एक एहसानों की पावन सी कहानी है कभी कबीरा दीवाना था कभी मीरा दीवानी है, यहाँ सब लोग कहते है मेरी आँखों में आसूँ हैं जो तू समझे तो मोती है जो न समझे तो पानी है !!! समुँदर पीर का अंदर है लेकिन रो नहीं सकता ये आसुँ प्यार का मोती है इसको खो नहीं सकता, मेरी चाहत को दुल्हन तू बना लेना मगर सुन ले जो मेरा हो नहीं पाया वो तेरा हो नहीं सकता !!! भ्रमर कोई कुमुदनी पर मचल बैठा तो हँगामा हमारे दिल में कोई ख्वाब पला बैठा तो हँगामा, अभी तक डूब कर सुनते थे हम किस्सा मुहब्बत का मैं किस्से को हक़ीक़त में बदल बैठा तो हँगामा !!!

लहरों से डर कर नौका पार नहीं होती,कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती। नन्हीं चींटी जब दाना लेकर चलती है,चढ़ती दीवारों पर, सौ बार फिसलती है।मन का विश्वास रगों में साहस भरता है,चढ़कर गिरना, गिरकर चढ़ना न अखरता है।आख़िर उसकी मेहनत बेकार नहीं होती,कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती। डुबकियां सिंधु में गोताखोर लगाता है,जा जा कर खाली हाथ लौटकर आता है।मिलते नहीं सहज ही मोती गहरे पानी में,बढ़ता दुगना उत्साह इसी हैरानी में।मुट्ठी उसकी खाली हर बार नहीं होती,कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती। असफलता एक चुनौती है, इसे स्वीकार करो,क्या कमी रह गई, देखो और सुधार करो।जब तक न सफल हो, नींद चैन को त्यागो तुम,संघर्ष का मैदान छोड़ कर मत भागो तुम।कुछ किये बिना ही जय जय कार नहीं होती,कोशिश करने वालों की कभी हार नहीं होती।

Is Death just the termination of life?? Technically speaking, It is. NOW, Is death bad? Well.. NO. Death is good. How can it be bad if living has become so painful now-a-days Death is so powerful and yet so beautiful. It eleviates you from the cycle of pain and pleasure. It relieves you from all bondings, makes you like a free ion. It detaches you from conciousness, frees you from filth of being with other humans. Death comes in many forms and comes with many faces: some beautiful, some illogical and some gruesome. Unfortunately, we have conditioned out minds to see only the bad faces of death.. Death is the face of Nirvana, it is the face of eternal peace, it is the integration with nothingness and everything at the same time. Death of the termination from hell and entry into heaven. It is the state of affairs where one is out of body, out of mind. The biggest evil of all times is the active cognition that man enjoys. It is the cognitive self of we humans that compels us to conclude o...

On my death bed, I don't want to think, "Oh Shit!!! There were so many things I could've done during my lifetime... " Cognition donot gets carry forward to the next birth. Hence, reincarnation becomes meaningless for me. Whatever has to happen, has to happen in this lifetime only.. like there is no future.I wanna see everything possible..From the best of pleasure to the worst of pain, from the most filthy insult to the most adorable respect, from the dead boredom to bone-chilling exitement.. EVERYTHING....... They say, life is nothing but a preparation to death.. I guess I wanna be fully prepared for that...

हज़ारों मंजिलें होंगी, लाखों कारवां होंगे निगाहें मुझको ढूनदेंगी, नजाने हम कहॉ होंगे

Okay, now dhanaulti is a beautiful place in Uttranchal. And like any place else in Himachal / Uttranchal, it leave you speachless.. The most special thing about this place are the cloud covered hills. Located around 20 Kms from Massourie, you can reach there from Delhi in 9 hrs. There is a small market in Dhanaulti where you can get an oka type hotel. Thed market itself is dirty but the real beauty lies outside the market. Best way to enjoy is to walk around inthat place Wake up early in the morning and start walking.. walk walk and walk a bit more till you reach the end of the world. This is where you get मोक्ष। Here goes the photos:

I'm sitting here in a hotel room at a remote location. As people say, US is beautiful, I must admit, this place is awesome. The landscape is really cool; neat and clean roads, green all around. Very few people you'll see on the roads. It's a heaven for the Loners. YES, the loners। Coz' this place inspite of being very beautiful, appears to me as just a showcase beauty. The liveliness is missing. It's a dead place actually. So what's the difference between Indian and US countryside!!! WELL.... US countryside is like Aishwarya Rai immensely beautiful but has a plastic feel to it.. No liveliness in here. Indian countryside on the other-hand is like Rani Mukherjee: not as beautiful maybe, but full of life... I guess u know what I mean.. Counting my days to go back to my Sweet "disgusting NOIDA"

For all who thinks this is about Instant Messenger, let me remind you, messengers are dead। Blogs are in... Well, IM as-on-day stands for Intellectual Mastubation. Now what it stands for is this.. You sitting with your gang and discussing corporate strategy and conpemplate the CEO's vision for the next 5 years when you are a pappu in the company. This is intellectual mastubation. Now we all do Intellectual Mastubation. It is a part of human nature. You see, it's like playing computer games or it's like playing Monopoly. You become "ek pal ka PM or CEO". You sit with your friends with a cup of coffee and/or cigrettees and you start imagining yourself to be some big-shot and you start simulating situations (boleto... kinda "what-if" analysis). Like you'll discuss with your friends, about the Indian stock market and start arguing how the Finance Minister's policies are detremental to the stock prices of Cement. You (ofcourse, very passionately) cond...

The passion's dead. The desire for sins DEAD. Marriage's ruined the old kroy in me. But out of the ashes have evolved a new kroy. One who is more stable and less daring with life. A kroy who opens up the stock quotes as soon as he reached office. A kroy who knows no keeps a track of income and expenditure, a kroy who thinks about his wife's career above his own. activities: Now is this me or some funny charecter who resembles me physically but is an absolute disconnect meta-physically. Where's the weired charecter who never left a single oppertunity to comment on a passingby babe. I guess that kroy's dead and will never come back to life॥

I always used to regret why were none of the shops selling pirated softwares.. Well, here goes one.. There are is a shop that sells pirated s/w in Atta market. I guess this bold step has been taken after the explosive demand from the IT professionals out here in Noida. Direction: From SabMall when you walk towards Atta, there is a cut that goes to sector 18 Market. The shop is near that cut only.. This guy seems to have a good collection of games too..

Hi Guys, I know there are not many people who visit my blog, but nevertheless, here is what I've been looking out for... This time it's not some crappy philosophy or travel idea, it's something more important!! I'm looking out the people who use DC++ over LAN... Anyone out there??? Now for those of you who need some clarity on what exactly is DC++, here it goes.. DC++ is the next biggest thing that has happened over the net after Napster. It's a supernapster! Unlike P2P sharing communities that share files over internet, DC++ shares files over the local area network. So effectively there are LAN-wise communities over each LAN. The benefit is that you can download any amount of data without wasting your bandwidth. Moreover download speed is all that your LAN card can chew!!! So download 900 Mb of data from a user in your region in a matter of minutes and there you go... all set to rock.. PLEASE JOIN HANDS TO UTILIZE THE LAN BANDWIDTH TO ITS OPTIMUM CAPACITY.. ONE MOR...

Hi Friends , Finally, the day has arrived when I'll be leaving the Gang of Bachelors and enters the League of Married Men. I’ve been hearing all funny things about marriage like… “Marriages are made in heavens, but so are lightening and thunder” “A man is incomplete until he is married. After that, he is finished…” “In a Marriage, a man looses his bachelor’s degree and the lady gains her masters…” … all these and many more… But still, I’ve decided to take the plunge. A plunge towards a stable and responsible life. Life where late night parties shall henceforth be referred to as “Bad Habit”. A life where grocery will mean “Real Grocery” and not a monthly stock of beer and cigarettes, and a life where children will refer to me as “Uncle” and not “Bhaiya”… And although, this all sounds scary, I’m sure it’ll turn out to be a wise decision. We’ll be grateful if you can make it up for the marriage (and engagement) to bless me and my wife (who has been bold enough to take up this lifetime...

Now that I'm gettin' married, I don't feel like working anymore. Not that I am too exited about the wedding. Just the fact that another life's getting hooked on to me is kinda funny. Look at me.. I'm a 27 yrs old guy, who loves to experiment with life; lands up in some trouble almost every quater; thinks that first person shooter games revolutionalized IT; feels that nothing in this concrete jungle is worth the pain it takes to achieve them. I'm someone who can be a good entertainer, good friend, good boy-friend, but NEVER a good husband. Reason: well I'm too much of an experimenter with life. Post marriage, a man looses his freedom to do ANYTHING. Here is a checklist of what's gonna happen when I try talking to her... Me: Hey, Why don't we go to the Great Indian Rock this weekend... Bilkul mast hoga!!! Wife: They are absurd, and I don't even know how to head-bang.. Let's go out for a movie.. Me: You go and sleep, I gotta check my orkut and r...